Sandy Warner ~ ~ ~ ~



Today I took my grandkids to the park for a picnic, to play on the playground and then feed the ducks.  On the way, we drove through a drive-thru to pick up a lunch and they handed us helium balloons with our order.  Our youngest toddler grasped her balloon and cried.  I had no idea what was wrong and the eldest said she was afraid of losing her balloon. 


At the park when I opened the back trunk and bent over to get our things suddenly all 3 of them were crying very loud with big tears.  When I looked to see what was wrong, they were all peering up into the sky at 3 balloons!  I felt so bad for them and so I took the chair out of the trunk, sat down and looked into their eyes at their level. I said that we would stop by the store and buy some mylar balloons and they could pick out the ones they wanted.  That immediately consoled the 2 older ones, but our youngest simply would not be consoled.  Nothing I said or did helped.  She just kept crying.  When I tore open the paper bags and used them for a plate and put the food on them,  She put both of her hands flat onto her bag and just cried, not eating.  I asked her what was wrong and she said, “Fly away.” 


She would eat nothing unless I put my own hand on her bag to hold it down.  So with the other hand I am getting out the drinks and as I get a drink, she grabs it and puts it back into the cardboard drink holder.  And then she grabs the food and puts things back into the sack, and then the condiments.  She dumps her own food in.  All the while, she is crying terribly. 


I asked her if she wanted to eat, to play, feed the ducks, call Mommy, call Daddy, go home, take a nap, come sit in my lap, get another balloon… I kept coming up with ideas and she said no to all of them and kept grabbing things as soon as I put them down, and crying that they would fly away!  Nothing I said or did helped.  Finally I asked, “What can Grammy do for you?”  She replied, “Hold me!!!”  So I picked her up and she pulled her own feet up into a ball and hid her face in my chest and I just rocked her little balled up person.  She immediately quieted down and closed her eyes as I patted and rocked her. 


Later when we left to feed the ducks, I noticed she had the same wadded up paper in her hand and would not let it go.  It had encumbered her ability to eat and play and she just would not let it go.  Finally when it came to receiving bread for the ducks, she let it go in place of the bread.


I really prayed about this because I realized whatever trauma she was facing happened before the balloons escaped the car.  She was crying and grasping from the moment the balloons came in from the drive through.  She does have high ceilings at her house and often when I visit I see balloons at the top of the ceiling.  So balloons to her cause a fear of loss.  And the fact the balloon was lost, the very thing she feared, this caused her past trauma to surface and compound it with the new one.  I shared this with Wayne when I got home and we carefully prayed over all the details of our little granddaughter’s heart.


This whole experience turned into a very big Word for me, one with 5 parts!





HEARDDon’t go back over your past.




EXCERPT FROM "Give Me the Paper"  4/14/13
by Paige Norfleet


"Give Me the Paper..."

As I inquired of the Lord as to what must be done to break free of the yoke of sadness, He pointed to a piece of paper that I held tightly in my fist and spoke, "Give Me the paper, and in exchange I will give you what you desire."


Before this moment, I had been completely unaware of my tightly-clenched fist or the paper that it held. I immediately knew what was written on it. This list contained a memoir of disappointments, failures, and pain. In essence, it was a record of account; a statement of reasons, causes, or motives. I had held it for safekeeping in guarding myself from future mistakes, and I wasn't sure that I was ready to release it to the Savior. What if I needed it to keep my heart safe? What if I was about to repeat an awful mistake again?


But again Jesus asked for the paper. Slowly I opened my fist and placed the paper along with my past failures into His loving hand. The exchange was immediate and my burden was replaced with peace. I could now enter into His rest. There would be no need to labor to steer clear of wrong situations or dangerous places. I was free to merely follow and learn from Jesus.


Is it really that simple? Yes, it is.


In John 14:27, Jesus said, "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."


{End Paige quotes}


With both this traumatic experience and Paige’s Word, I really prayed over issues of my past.  The first thing the Lord brought up was the fact that I had kept a little file on my computer of all the “bad” lessons I had learned that I never wanted to repeat again!  I felt I needed to keep it there as a reminder.  The Lord “reminded” me that His love keeps no record or inventory of worthless, bad, evil, harm.


1 Corinthians 13:5 NKJV

Does not behave itself rudely, seeks not her own, is not easily provoked, keeps no record of evil. {2556}


1Co 13:5 NLT

It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged.


Strong's Greek Dictionary
2556. kakos
A primary word; worthless (intrinsically, such; whereas 4190 properly refers to effects), i.e. (subjectively) depraved, or (objectively) injurious:bad, evil, harm, ill, noisome, wicked.


Check mark:  Deleted file.






The next thing the Lord reminded me of was a BD card I sent a few years ago where a bear was riding along on some balloons, and one by one they popped and he was getting lower and lower until he finally fell to the ground. 


Finally a hot air balloon comes and he climbs in and soars up, up, up!  It was kind of a consolation card because this person had made several errors in following his dreams and had really lost a lot due to these errors.  It was the Lord’s Word saying that this person was being given another chance for promotion after learning difficult lessons. 




Check mark:  Let go of the busted dreams of the past!





Next the Lord reminded me of a poem the Lord gave me about cutting apron strings in order to allow our children (and family) to climb higher in the Lord.  We must release them to go on with God, and follow the pathway He has prescribed and not try to create them into our own image!  Our dreams for them may not be God’s dreams, and even if we know His dreams, He may want to fulfill them differently than we expect.  We must let go and relinquish control.


POEM:  STRINGS  10/13/05

I see a balloon high in the sky

Having traveled miles gone by.

I once held on and grasped it tight

Against tug and pull to take flight.


The wrestling of strings are now released.

In surrender there is always peace.

Remember well to give back to God.

And all of heaven will applaud.


It hurts a mother to cut her strings.

But such delight when she sees their wings.

Flying on prayers so lovingly given,

They’ll find their way for which they’ve striven.


Now they soar and fly in the wind.

Where they go, we see no end.

Roots and wings we give our kids.

To seek God’s best, not what’s forbid.


Always take time to say a prayer.

The wind will carry your heart that’s there.

A mother’s prayers will never cease.

On through history past deceased.


1 Sam 1:22-8  NKJV

But Hannah  did not go up, for she said to her husband, "Not until the child is weaned; then I will take him, that he may appear before the LORD and remain there forever."   So Elkanah her husband said to her, "Do what seems best to you; wait until you have weaned him. Only let the LORD establish His word." Then the woman stayed and nursed her son until she had weaned him.  Now when she had weaned him, she took him up with her, with three bulls, one ephah of flour, and a skin of wine, and brought him to the house of the LORD in Shiloh. And the child was young. Then they slaughtered a bull, and brought the child to Eli. And she said, "O my lord! As your soul lives, my lord, I am the woman who stood by you here, praying to the LORD. For this child I prayed, and the LORD has granted me my petition which I asked of Him. Therefore I also have lent him to the LORD; as long as he lives he shall be lent to the LORD." So they worshiped the LORD there.


CHECK MARK: Chop all control and apron strings with loved ones.





As I was still praying over this balloon trauma, I was also wrestling over a demonic door of a person I had been praying over.  The Lord reminded me that we need to be careful about the people we minister to, that their issues do not affect our own peace and level of fellowship in the Lord.  Sometimes this comes through unequally yoked fellowship and soul ties.  Sometimes it is a matter of priorities and where the Lord wants us to spend our time.  Sometimes it is nothing more than distraction over people’s issues, which was true in my case. 


The Lord reminded me that His friends and family were ONLY those who did the will of His Father.  That is a good indicator of Whom He considers equally yoked fellowship. 


Matthew 12:46-50 While he yet talked to the people, behold, his mother and his brothers stood outside, desiring to speak with him. 47 Then one said unto him, Behold, your mother and your brothers stand outside, desiring to speak with you. 48 But he answered and said unto him that told him, Who is my mother? and who are my brothers? 49 And he stretched forth his hand toward his disciples, and said, Behold my mother and my brothers! 50 For whosoever shall do the will of my Father who is in heaven, the same is my brother, and sister, and mother.


CHECK MARK:  Keep people’s issues from spiritually & emotionally hindering and distracting my relationship with God.  Cut emotional ties with all levels of distraction.


As I pondered this and making sure my soul ties were clean, Pastor James sent the following Word!




I experienced something very different this morning. The presence of the Lord was very strong and I received a vision of Him watching over us from Heaven. I went face down and felt the Spirit lifting me up. However this time I was moving up backwards. It felt like the Spirit was lifting me by my waist and I was looking back at the milestones we were passing. I tried to look forward but was not able to change my position. I seemed to be traveling through some kind of spiritual tunnel and I could see bright rings around the tunnel at regular intervals, and felt that we were moving very fast as ring after ring passed by and disappeared in the distance. When the Spirit finally lifted me into Heaven, I was pulled into the cloud of His glory. The cloud was moving constantly and the colors kept changing as I experienced different parts of the Shekinah cloud. As I was soaking in the Presence it was wonderful, but I also was shown many images and faces in rapid succession. I didn’t really understand what was happening. So, I asked for wisdom and revelation to understand what these things meant. The Lord said, “It is time to relinquish control over the direction of your life, and let the Spirit lead you! Let Him take you where you are being sent!”


Then the Lord said, “If you want to receive the things you are requesting, you must let go of some things in your life! The things you were shown and the faces you saw are things from which you need to be set free! Let go of soul ties with the people you saw! Get rid of the things you were shown!” The fire was placed in our hands to empower us to do what the Lord was commanding today. Some of the things and faces were not familiar to me. I understood by the Spirit that these are things and people from which some of you need to be set free. I was even shown some people I need to remove from my Facebook list of friends. In fact, I had to do that for one person before I could finish this message. Then the Lord told me to delete all the email messages and contact information for this person. I paused at this point and did what the Lord told me to do.


The Lord once again took me through a teaching about the time of the “falling away.” I was told that more and more people will stop associating with us as we allow the Spirit to lead us. In addition to those who separate from us, there are others we need to let go and break off all soul ties. These people are hindering our walk with the Lord. It is time to cancel every legal assignment we have given to the enemy through these soul ties and to be set free from everything which hinders our walk with Him. The Lord was not asking us to cut off a lot of people. We are only to separate from those specifically named by Him. We will still be connected with those we are called to minister to and those we are to lead to the Lord. Don’t begin to cut people off unless you hear it clearly from the Lord.


I pray that we will have very clear spiritual discernment in these matters! I pray for you to hear clearly from the Lord so that what you do will be in obedience to Him! It is not a time to bring more strife into your life. It is time to be set free from it so you can obediently follow the leadership of the Lord. This requires great discernment. I pray that you will be elevated in your gift of discerning in the spiritual realm. Amen and Amen!!!


Pastor James Durham

Higher Calling Ministries, Intl



Once as I pondered the trauma of the balloon day, the Lord brought into memory the other side of the fence in regards to letting go of strings.  There are times that it is vitally important that we hold on and don’t let go.  It’s a matter of maturity of the one who is yet a child in the Lord.


Our youngest grandchild, the one who was so traumatized about the balloons flying away, had undergone open heart surgery at the age of 3 weeks.  The Lord told me that when the doctors stopped her heart, He would bring her to Himself and He would personally be holding her!  “HOLD ME!”  My precious granddaughter has already experienced death and being taken from her body and flying UP just like those balloons.  I sincerely think there is some connection to her sub-conscience memory of that day and we are sure praying over this wound.


The Lord told me something when I was doing an inventory over soul ties after having to fight off the person’s demons the other day.  He said that no matter what this person chose (in regards to my prayers over a possible good or bad decision) that I must not get distracted and I needed to stay with my children and not give up praying for them.   


Immediately He brought back the memory of the String of the Kite Word He gave me.  Our prayers (and thus our true care and concern) are vital to helping the children and the next generation to be launched.  These are those who are still not able to fly without our help and our walks and prayers in the Lord are vital to them.  We must continue to stand in the gap and hold on, being a foundation for them and a stable place for them to grow up. 


The bottom line is that a kite will not soar and not fly at all without someone else on the ground, holding onto its string


CHECK MARK:  Hold tightly in prayer over those who are needing to fly in God.




Dear hearts, I know all your wounds, all your fears, all your mistakes and all your losses.  There is nothing that has escaped Me.  Every detail of every moment of your lives are recorded in My book.  I have prayed for you and held you through all your painful moments.  I understand the nature of your grasp and want to teach you the delicate balance between letting go and holding on. 


This is a heart matter where you learn how to let go of anything and anyone that steals your peace and wellbeing and trust in Me.  Yes beloveds, place every loved one in My capable hands to loving draw and raise up into their destinies.  Yes beloveds, let go of all hindrances that keep your focus off fellowship with Me and what I AM doing in your life.   Trade what you are gripping onto, and the fear of its loss with what I AM holding in reservation for you.  What I have to replace, is so much better than you realize. 


On the other side of the fence, dear ones never stop praying and believing My very best for all those you carry in the Spirit who are suffering trauma.  Learn the delicate balance of holding on without grasping.  Let My love flow and My peace reign in your hearts.  Give all your loved ones to Me to raise and I will give you wisdom on how to partner with Me in the process.


Isaiah 53:4-11 Surely he has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. 5 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. 6 All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned everyone to his own way; and the LORD has laid on him the iniquity of us all. 7 He was oppressed, and he was afflicted, yet he opened not his mouth: he is brought as a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is dumb, so he opened not his mouth. 8 He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living: for the transgression of my people was he stricken. 9 And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death; because he had done no violence, neither was any deceit in his mouth. 10 Yet it pleased the LORD to bruise him; he has put him to grief: when you shall make his soul an offering for sin, he shall see his offspring, he shall prolong his days, and the will of the LORD shall prosper in his hand. 11 He shall see the travail of his soul, and shall be satisfied: by his knowledge shall my righteous servant justify many; for he shall bear their iniquities.





Words from the The Quickened Word are excerpts from the journals of Sandy Warner.  To better understand how God speaks, read Sandy’s book, “101+ Ways God Speaks, And How to Hear Him.”  Website:    Email:  







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