DESPERATION OPENS A HEART TO RECEIVE 12/23/09
Today I had a conversation with someone who has a spouse
that is overcoming cancer. I felt quickened to share a
portion of what I said to this person:
When we are living with someone who is battling
long-term illness, the tendency is to want to bury your
own pain in escape, rather than feel the real load of
our loved one. I did this for years until I got sick
too. What I learned, is that our sufferings truly are
seasons for melting our hard
Spock like hearts
and giving us tender hearts of
In the very deepest part, inside of us, in our deepest
agonized pain, .... is a primeval scream of desperation
for God's deliverance and love. When you find that
place and pour it all out to Him, instead of keeping it
frozen through evil substitutes, you will find His
truest connection and healing. This is not something
that can be cooked up. It is something that in your
darkest hours, when you want to turn to substitutes, you
instead scream out to Him… it is in that highest
temptation of flesh vs your faith that the agony will
manifest and you make a deliberate force of your will to
turn to God instead. It is then, in that choice, and
that screaming need that He will be there, and you will
have broken through a door of invitation to join Him in
People emotions are just emotion and they come and go.
However, when a heart becomes deeply desperate, there is
nothing that can hold it back. It is in the peak of
that desperation that IF we turn to God, we finally make
that intense connection we have needed to find
Those moments of connections have to be 2-way.
Sometimes, we simply can’t receive what He has to give
until we open our hearts through desperate need.
Sometimes, our hearts are not open without that need.
There are times when I don’t hear from Him and I get
dryer and dryer and think I am going to die. My prayers
start whimpering, and then finally I am desperate for
Him. Then we finally connect and He says what He has to
say... I LISTEN, I RECEIVE.
Love must be reciprocal for it to have satisfaction and
fulfilling value. Sometimes the only way we can break
through to RECEIVE is to become desperate.
Luke 11:5-13 NLT
Then, teaching them more about prayer, he used this
illustration: "Suppose you went to a friend's house at
midnight, wanting to borrow three loaves of bread. You
would say to him, 'A friend of mine has just arrived
for a visit, and I have nothing for him to eat.' He
would call out from his bedroom, 'Don't bother me. The
door is locked for the night, and we are all in bed. I
can't help you this time.' But I tell you this — though
he won't do it as a friend, if you keep knocking long
enough, he will get up and give you what you want so his
reputation won't be damaged.
"And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will be
given what you ask for. Keep on looking, and you will
find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened.
For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks,
finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks.
"You fathers — if your children ask for a fish, do
you give them a snake instead? Or if they ask for an
egg, do you give them a scorpion? Of course not! If you
sinful people know how to give good gifts to your
children, how much more will your heavenly Father give
the Holy Spirit to those who ask him."