I have always had a tendency to suffer long and speak
little. In so doing, I have done a lot of “stuffing”
which is not exactly healthy. So one day I was driving
in the car and suddenly without even thinking about it,
I prayed a very fervent prayer. I groaned, “Oh God! My
life is surrounded by all these negative complainers!!!!
I was quiet for a minute and suddenly I exclaimed, “OH
GOD, I GET IT!!!!!” “So is Yours.”
It was a kindred heart moment where He unveiled a touch
of His own heart right into my own.
So several months went by and I had been climbing uphill
and carrying a big load. Part of the difficulty was
overcoming the opinions of those who doubted and spoke
negative statements of unbelief. Once again I had
suffered long under these statements of negative faith.
Finally I found myself bursting out in prayer. “Oh
God!!!!” “Please do not listen to them! Do not heed
their votes of unbelief! Please do not let our destiny
be hindered by their unbelief! Let Your will be done and
perform Your Word even as You have spoken it!” I felt
such a relief praying such a strange prayer. At that
moment I was working on a form on line.
QUICKENED EYE GLANCE: My eye fell upon a button
that said, “Complaint Form.” I burst out laughing.
Then my eye jumped one line down. Directly underneath it
said, “Thank you for complaining!” That was so
hilarious, it struck me as the funniest thing I had
heard in a long time.
I suddenly realized that the Lord was telling me thank
you for pouring out my heart to Him and pouring out all
my complaints about the unbelieving. He does not want me
to carry any of this on my own shoulders, simply be a
conduit. How totally gracious He is, and how totally
hilarious! Imagine God telling me, “Thank you for
So I am still laughing about 10 minutes later. Every
time I think of it I start to laugh out loud. I wonder
why I think it is SO funny and I receive a revelation of
Moses in heaven. He has heard and watched this whole
exchange and he is laughing a belly laugh. I suddenly
realized that his life was filled with complainers and
unbelievers. And his laugh in heaven was a catharsis of
pure joy to see me laughing my way out of the load!!!
WORD TO PONDER: POUR IT ALL OUT 7/14/05
Yes, we laugh with you, My love! Just laugh all that
stress off your heart and your shoulders. Don't carry
any burden, let it all wash off. Precious, even when you
feel like you are all alone and no one is standing with
you in these matters that concern you, know that You
have an advocate in heaven that prays with you. I stand
with you and hold you up.
Though you are surrounded by the voices of multitudes
who say it can't be done, I bow low to listen to the one
who says it can. Yes, I hear your heart, the one who
suffers long under the unbelief of others. Just pour out
all your complaints about their complaints and I will
file it all away in a box that says, “Thank you for
complaining today. I AM more than able to take care of
Ps 55:22 NKJV
Cast your burden on the LORD, and He shall sustain
you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.